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Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Queen of Swords' LiveJournal:

Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
1:34 pm
i would kiss you, but you're outta my league
We should get jerseys cause we make a great team, but yours would look better than mine, cause you’re outta my league. And I know it’s so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life. Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust. It’s jealousy, they can see that we’ve got it going on

And I’m racking my brain for a new improved way to let you know you’re more to me than I know how to say, you’re okay with the way this is going to be. This is going to be the best thing we’ve ever seen.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could. All I gotta say is, I musta done something good. You came along one day and you rearranged my life,

all I gotta say is I musta done something right.

Maybe I’m just lucky cause it’s hard to believe, believe that somebody like you’d end up with someone like me. And I know that it’s so cliche to talk about you this way, but I’ll push all my inhibitions aside. It’s so very obvious to everyone watching us, that we have got something real good going on.

Current Mood: happy
..>>heal my scars<<..
Friday, October 28th, 2005
1:24 am
you caught me...
You have to wait for the someone who sees you, and I mean really, truly sees you. Sees all your quirks and your flaws and the cracks in your facade and still loves you and gives you records and maybe goes to the park with you on Sundays to sit on the swings. Listen — this person will find you, but you have to wait. That’s the important distinction there. They will find you. So live your life, and be happy, and stop looking all the time... Because if I found it, so will you

Current Mood: lonely
read[4]..>>heal my scars<<..
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
6:18 pm
..>> heartsick <<..
the bounce in my step
when I wake up and he’s the first thing I see, and he does his cute little morning face and the first thing he says is “I love you”, and then I have to get out of bed and go to college and it’s just the worst thing in the world because I know I could be in bed with him, all warm and cosey, and when I say bad things about myself and he insists that I’m amazing, how when I read those lists of things that boys are supposed to do for girls, I realise that he does pretty much every single one of them, how we can spend every minute of our time together and not get bored or argue, how I know he feels exactly about me how I feel about him, how we’ve watched about 3 million movies together,
and how he lets me take his ipod to college eventhough it’s definitely his favourite object in the world and probably dies a little bit without it, when he fixes all my computers and stuff with his technical genius brain, and when we stay up all night talking, but at the same time how we don’t even have to talk, just being together is perfect, how he makes everything okay, how he gets along with all my friends and family amazingly, how I’m just 100% sure about him, and we hold hands wherever we go, I love our little outings to Whole Food's because we are both geeks and actually enjoy food shopping, and we always end up buying exactly the same things, how I can tell him literally anything and I know he’d do the same, how he’s the most genuine boy I’ve ever met in my whole life, how when I hurt my ankle he just swooped me up and carried me, how he’ll cuddle me until I’m content, the feeling that I get when I see him on stage and I just think wow, that’s my boyfriend, how he’s so honest, and never fails at making me feel 100% good about myself, and I love it when we completely waste our days, well it’s not really a waste, but when we just spend the whole day in bed and watching come dine with me and eating pizza and being complete retards, how I know I’m the only girl he thinks about, how I can be my loserish self around him at all times because he actually likes it, and how it’s impossible for me to be in a mood with him for longer than 10 minutes due to him being the cutest person who you just can’t be angry at, when he makes fun of my small hands, the way that everyone is sick of us because all we ever do is bum around together and act puke-inducingly in love, how much we can talk without ever getting tired of it, how he cuddles me untill I fall asleep eventhough he can’t sleep unless he’s facing away, because he knows I can only fall asleep that way, how he’s exactly everything I’ve ever wanted in a boy and more, and how I can’t relate to the sad songs I used to love anymore, our stupid faces we’re always making, how everything is just a million times better when he’s with me, and how we fit together perfectly when we’re all snuggled up, and how he always warms me up when I’m cold because I can’t actually produce my own body heat, how it was just impossible not to fall in love with him, the way he bullies me about the way I say water, that letter he wrote me on my birthday, how he appreciates all the same things as me, how I could just go on about reasons why I love him forever, and the way that he’s made my life more amazing than it’s ever been before, ever.

Current Mood: okay
..>>heal my scars<<..
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
12:36 am
xx pretty xx
I asked him if he loved me.

"Forever" he said. Speak to me more of this forever. I have eternity to listen <3
read[2]..>>heal my scars<<..
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
9:34 pm
is where i burn

When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Don`t try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you. When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left... so please, never walk away from me.

Current Mood: dorky
..>>heal my scars<<..
Monday, August 29th, 2005
10:23 pm
lick my face
I got this most amazing email from him today <3


This could only be me feeling this way but here it goes. Next time we go out, leave the lipstick at home, leave the cover at home, the eyeliner, pushup bra, high heel, expensive clothes, leave it all at home. Theses aren’t the things I’m going to hold at night, these aren’t the things I will fall in love with, and these aren’t the things I want to spend the rest of my life with. If that’s how you want to start our relationship than we are starting off on nothing but a lie. If it goes the way you want it to go than I will see the real you soon enough. In my opinion you are never more beautiful when you first wake up in the morning, your hair out of control and the anticipation of a new day in your eye, that’s the real you, the you I want to know. I know every girl wants to feel beautiful, but you must really have no idea how beautiful you really are. If I’m not making that obvious in the first place than I’m not doing my job.

Current Mood: content
..>>heal my scars<<..
Sunday, August 28th, 2005
10:17 pm
..>> i came here to chew bubble gum & kick ass <<..

i find it entirely frustrated when i try to be the unique bee that i am... try to be
myself and find out that people see something they like and copy my style, or words,
i know you are reading this... to the little girl who looks like an anorexic rat and whines her
emo words and throws shit against the wall... GET A LIFE!!!!!!
you know who you are and now you know that I know. it's entirely pathetic. get interests
of your own... get a life outside your little screen and your insecurities... get a life
outside of the one you have which is criticising others and srutinizing at things which
you have no idea about.
you're not interesting
you're not smart
you're not artistic in the least
or sexeh
or a hot... you're plain.
and apprently you see it as well... copying others and trying to pass of that you are the orignal.

i have nothing to do but laugh at you and feel sorry for your utterly depserate and sad ass!
go stuff your face with sushi and cry to someone who doesn't really care about you!

On a better note: "I miss her smell and the way she tastes. It’s a mystery of human chemistry and I don’t understand it. Some people, as far as their senses are concerned, just feel like home." <3 Ugh, he always makes me feel high when he talks about me to his friends.

Current Mood: infuriated
read[2]..>>heal my scars<<..
8:05 pm
I will never love another like I love you!

The next will be lucky to have a small piece of my heart; the next time around, I’ll play the game just like you played it so I don’t get hurt.

- I hate it when people say things like this. Why would you want to do the worst thing that somebody did to you, to someone else? It makes you just as bad. If everyone did that everytime they got hurt, everyone you ever meet would be an asshole. And then you’d never have a chance of finding love, because everyone would be too busy being bitter over someone who just wasn’t meant to be. Don’t let some asshole ruin your future, and give new people a chance instead of letting the cycle go on. I hope that makes sense.

Current Mood: lazy
read[1]..>>heal my scars<<..
Friday, August 26th, 2005
10:58 pm
♥ YOU ♥
are the smell before the rain ♥

i had a dream last night! i was under water, tangled in seaweed, swimming with schools
of iridescent fish through a dim, wet, deafening silence. and there was a woman, raveged and
aged... she lay on a coral reef, weeping as she pried open oyster shells with her hands.
instead of legs, the woman's torso sloped into the thick, scaly tail of a fish. before i
could get to the mermaid, i lifted up towards the surface... my head feeling as if it would
burst with the pressure. i splashed into aa bright twinkling and the cry of seagulls. there
was a sharp hook of pain in my hips and groin and a splatter of blood. a thick arm amd hand
covered with white hair reached out.... i my eyes and was kissed -really kissed-... i was
trying to ask what was happening, but i felt something hard and cool in my mouth. i spit it
out into my hand- a large baroque pearl. and then i collapsed with a delicate mist hanging
over the garden... smells of night blooming jasmine and gardenia invading my nostrils, the
splashing of a fountains and chirping crickets.... i turned my head in a haze and was met by phosphorescent green light wraping their way around me, illuminating the path to somewhere
unknown and then i faded slowly, with a chill starting in the nape of my neck and it slid
down my spine to just above the band of my underpants and then i slipped away... the mermaid's
pearl still in my hand

I am thinking it’s a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss, they’re perfectly aligned. And I have to speculate that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes, like puzzle pieces from the clay. True, it may seem like a stretch, but it’s thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you’re away, when I am missing you to death. When you were out there on the road for several weeks of shows. And when you scan the radio, I hope this song will guide you home.

Current Mood: relaxed
..>>heal my scars<<..
Thursday, August 25th, 2005
10:37 pm
.:>>now everyone, do you know?! <<:.

my stomach tied in knots

these days become the week

these weeks become our lives

Current Mood: creative
read[1]..>>heal my scars<<..
9:39 am
..:>> i don't want to die without a few scars <:..
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: ill drive my hooks in u..bleed u
to the bone
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: ill drive my hooks in u..bruise u
black and blue
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: drag u to my tomb,blood red in
ur womb
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: ill slice into ur flesh,eat whats
left ..of u
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: my blood doll ,flesh unfolds
seeing red
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: my blood doll ,in my locker cold
and dead
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: how do u like it
BLOOD,GUTS,GORE: u know thats inspirered from u

boys write songs for me
because they fall at my feet and want me

Mike ofcourse shouldn't be jealous, but proud that he has what others want. <3

Current Mood: sleepy
..>>heal my scars<<..
Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
9:12 pm
she said "losing love is like a window in your heart...
So don't stop calling
you’re the reason I love losing sleep

He calls me up at 3am, because he knows I would rather hear from him than not. Because he loves to hear my sleeping sound and hevay breathing and lull me to sleep with his cooing words and endless compliments. Can he be for real?! Please never let this feeling go away.

Current Mood: happy
read[4]..>>heal my scars<<..
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
10:15 pm
[ ! ] all i want is everything...
And i think I've met someone who will give it to me... He gives me the kind of feeling people write novels about!

Current Mood: cold
..>>heal my scars<<..
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